A client feared that he was some sort of a monster.
"Desperate" feared that he might be some sort of a monster because of
intrusive, hostile thoughts and urges.
His problem was: "I seem to have developed a
terrible problem over the past few years. I have these horrible thoughts
that come into my mind completely unpredictably at virtually any time. I
am frightened that I might be going crazy or that I might be one of those
horrible mass murderers. I have not dared tell anyone about these
thoughts, fearing that they would never want to have anything to do with
me ever again. Am I crazy? Am I dangerous? What can I do?
I will try to describe two recent episodes. I work at the checkout
counter in a large grocery store, the other day a young mother came
through the line with her infant daughter. Suddenly I had the
thought that I could grab the baby from her arms and smash it on the
floor. What if I did that? How do I know I wont? Why would such an
idea occur to me?
Yesterday when I was filling up my car I thought about tossing my lit
lighter at the gas attendant as I drove off.
I am living in dreaded fear of these thoughts. I've been staying by
myself more and more because I feel that I'm not fit to be with people.
I am terrified that one day I wont stop at just thinking about these
thinks. Should I turn myself in? Is there any way to stop these
dreadful thoughts?
Please Help!!! ....."desperate"
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